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Jellybean: A Baby's Journey to God
Jellybean: A Baby's Journey to God
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This book had 3 printings within a year of publication! Now in its 4th printing.
For families experiencing infant loss, this picture book shows the important role these babies still have in their families.
Little Jellybean, so nicknamed by her family, experiences an exciting world of sound and sensations inside her mother's womb, encountering the voices and personalities of her loving family. Just when she has nearly outgrown her mother's belly, a surprising visitor guides her to a new home.
There, Jellybean is given a mission to help her family find meaning in their loss.
If you are struggling to explain to your older children why their sibling is gone, this picture book is a gentle way to help them through grief.
"I read this book and broke down in tears. I had an early miscarriage, and this was such a beautiful way to envision that loss," said Kelly, a mother of a miscarried baby. After reading this book, another mother said, "After I stopped crying, I thought of friends and relatives who would do well with this book. Jellybean will speak to those who have miscarried at any stage and those who have lost full-term babies, infants, and even young children. We need help explaining and remembering God’s hand in the matter.”
Jellybean includes a dedication page where you can include the name of your lost infant and a prayer from the Liturgy for the Funeral of a Child Who Died before Baptism.
Find more infant loss resources here.
Endorsements
“Jellybean is such a beautiful love story between a family and the innocent child growing within her mother's womb. This little book is a gift to any family who has known Little Love and has had to say goodbye too soon.”
--Kelly Breaux, founder of Red Bird Ministry (supporting parents after infant loss)
"Thank you so much for this resource - how beautiful! I have added it to our site's book list for children."
--Sara Rogers, founder of Catholic Miscarriage Support
“Heartrending in its honesty and depiction of earthly and spiritual realities – with all the joy, grief, and ultimately hope that families feel in welcoming and then relinquishing their precious baby from the mother’s womb to the arms of the Father. We’ve shared these losses with our children, and this is a valuable tool for many, many grieving families.”
--Carolyn Astfalk, Catholic Writers Guild Vice President, author, and infant loss mother
“A lovely story about a little baby in her mother’s womb who is so eager to see life but discovers that God has something different in His plan. Highly recommended, especially for families with children who are grieving.”
-- Regina Doman, author of Angel in the Waters
"Jellybean is a masterpiece that delicately navigates the difficult subject of stillbirth and miscarriage. Children will appreciate the comforting perspective on the journey of unborn babies as they are tenderly led into the embrace of Heaven. This beautifully illustrated book serves as a source of solace and a beacon of hope for families impacted by loss. Such a unique and very much needed picture book, from which both adults and children will learn the sanctity of life and the boundless mercy of God's love for unborn babies."
-- Sarah-Jean Ballard, founder of Raising Wild Saints and mother of six, plus two babies in Heaven
“There's something beautiful about how personal this is; the story comes from the mind and heart of someone whose experience has formed deep reflection and insight on a subject that most people find very difficult to speak about in such consoling, yet also realistic terms.”
--Fr. Peregrine Fletcher, a Norbertine at St. Michael’s Abbey and author/illustrator
“The beauty of Jellybean is that it uses simple rhyme to convey such a profound message. Theoni and Bastian have truly transformed their own painful experience into something that is sure to help ease the ache of others going through this type of loss.”
--Eileen Tully, grief retreat leader and mother of twin daughters lost at birth
"Jellybean is a book that I wish did not have to exist but am so glad that it does. The story of little Jellybean is shared with great dignity and love. Written in verse and whimsically illustrated, the warmth of the story will make it a charming read-aloud for families, helping parents and caregivers form words to discuss this painful topic with their children. I would be grateful to have this book in my arsenal as a resource to gift or recommend, offering a small measure of support as a family grieves the loss of their precious baby."
--Katherine Bogner, teacher, DRE, and author
“Losing a child and sibling in the womb is one of the greatest sorrows in life. Jellybean is a powerful story of hope amidst the darkness of child loss, a story that will allow parents and siblings to find healing by seeing death through the eyes of Heaven.”
--Patrick O'Hearn, author of The Grief of Dads and Nursery of Heaven: Miscarriage, Stillbirth, and Infant Loss in the Lives of the Saints and Today's Parents
“Though heart-rendering and deeply moving, Theoni's lyrical journey through the devastation of losing a baby is surprisingly hopeful, showing the grace and comfort poured out by the Blessed Mother on grieving families. As a mother of two children lost in miscarriage, this subject is near and dear to my heart. The littlest saints in heaven are very real – and as shown in these beautiful words and illustrations, they are never far away.”
--Mary Harrell, producer and host at Mater Dei Radio
In the News
Aleteia: Where can women turn for help when they have a miscarriage?
National Catholic Register: The Joy and Sorrow of Losing Unborn Babies
The Holy Heroes Podcast: How to Support a Friend during an Infant Loss
Epoch Times: May is for Mothers
Girlfriends with Danielle Bean Podcast: Healing after Loss
Catholic Momcast Podcast: Baby Loss and Miscarriage with Theoni Bell
A Catholic Mom's Life: Miscarriage Resources
Epic Pew: Jellybean Review (best children's book in recent memory!)
The Katie McGrady Show: Jellybean and Understanding Miscarriage
CatholicMom.com: Jellybean Review
Catholic Mother & Daughter Review [YouTube]
Ora et Schola: A Catholic Homeschool Blog Review of Jellybean
The Catholic Homeschool Jellybean Review
A Catholic Take Radio Show (begins at minute 30:30)
Wake Up! Catholic Community (begins at 1:03.21)
CatholicMom.com: Theoni Bell's Personal Story about Loss
Details
Author: Theoni and Bastian Bell
Illustrations: Bernadette Gockowski
40 pages with full-color illustrations throughout
Softcover, 7 inches x 9 inches
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A beautifully illustrated children's book helping families process infant loss through miscarriage or stillbirth. Customers said it's "excellent" and "well written," bringing comfort and healing. The story depicts a baby's journey to heaven with the Blessed Mother, providing hope and facilitating conversations with siblings. Some noted it's better suited for later-term losses than early miscarriages.
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One of the hardest parts of the loss of my 3 children to miscarriage was explaining what happened to the babies to my living children. I'm so grateful resources like this have been created to fill in the gap. We are proud to link this book on our resources page for my ministry, We Carry You Still, as a faithful resource.
Great for children and even adults!
Great source of support for children and parents who experienced the loss of their sibling/child
Excellent book, and well written, too. It's a blessing to moms who have angels in heaven. Perfect for their siblings here on earth!
Beautiful book and so helpful for young siblings of a baby that dies in utero or shortly after birth! Unfortunately I have given two of these to families in the past year. The families found them helpful!!!
I wish I had this book when I lost a baby years ago!
As a mother of 4 little Saints in Heaven, this book struck a particular chord. We have made these babies a part of our family from the beginning and my eldest will ask questions from time to time about them ♥️ This was the perfect book to read with him. I sobbed almost the whole way through.
Daughter and family just lost their eagerly-awaited daughter and enjoyed holding her for only 4 hours. This book seemed a perfect gift when you just have “no words”.
This book is beautiful. I cried, but it is beautifully written and illustrated. Our parish Pro-Life Group recently saw our dream of a pro-life lending library, for our church, come to fruition. This book was purchased for that purpose and wil, hopefully, help those who have lost a child.
I highly recommend buying this book for families who have lost a baby through miscarriage. It gives a great explanation on something that is hard to explain to children.
It's a tale of a BEAUTIFUL journey to God - a real solace even after 46 years' loss. ♥️
My eighth child was unexpectedly stillborn; he died during childbirth. This book has been a blessing to help my children grieve their brother and understand that he is with God. It includes at the end the Collect Prayer for children who die before baptism. The writing and illustrations are superb. What really stuck with all of us was that God wanted Jellybean to experience the love of a family before returning to Him. Thank you, Theoni and Bastian Bell, for sharing your loss and helping all of us. God bless you.
I could really feel the compassion and sincerity as I read this book. Author and illustrator both took great care in writing and depicting such a sensitive topic. This book with help many families coping with this kind of loss.
Loved the story and it made me cry. I've always believed that the Blessed Mother and family members raised my babies. It's been about 50 years but I still think about Joshua James and Lauren Michelle.
Heartrending in its honesty and depiction of earthly and spiritual realities – with all the joy, grief, and ultimately hope that families feel in welcoming and then relinquishing their precious baby from the mother’s womb to the arms of the Father. We’ve shared these losses with our children, and this is a valuable tool for many, many grieving families.
A sweet book to gift families going through difficult times.
Theoni and Bastien Bell have created a wonderful resources for families healing from the deep grief of pregnancy loss. Jellybean's simple rhyme and beautiful illustrations tell a tremendously hopeful story of a baby's journey from her mother's womb to her heavenly home, and her role in praying for her family to join her there. I wish I'd had this book after our own losses!
This is the first children's book that I have read on miscarriage and stillbirth. This book is so important for siblings of child loss. Theoni's words are so deeply penetrating combined with Bernadette's beautiful watercolors. Such a reminder that God and our Blessed Mother are with us in our darkest moments.
There are not many good books to help the children in a family when a little one passes away, so this book is a beautiful and much needed resource. The illustrations are perfect for children; you can sit down with your kids and help them understand what has happened in a way that is very hopeful and comforting.
There is an inscription page in the front that allows you to dedicate the book in honor of the little one. Sometimes when we have no words, a book like this can speak for us.
Jellybean: A Baby’s Journey to God, written by Theoni and Bastian Bell and illustrated by Bernadette Gockowski, is a beautifully comforting picture book about the journey of an infant from conception to the moment she is called to heaven instead of delivered into the world. Written in rhyming verse, this book begins by describing the cozy environment of the mother’s womb, and all the pleasant sounds a baby girl, Jellybean, can hear, including her parents’ voices and her siblings’ play. As the time approaches when the baby is meant to join her family, the Blessed Mother comes to take her to heaven and explains that the rest of her family can’t join her now, but that she can pray for them until they can be reunited.
The loss of an unborn child can be so hard to explain to young children, but this book eases the burden by putting this difficult experience into kid-friendly terms. The story is a tear-jerker, as any book about infant loss is bound to be, but the sadness is accompanied by hope in Jesus. The living siblings mourn their lost sister, but the baby is with them in their sadness, and the children and parents are able to ask for her intercession. The book is also beautifully pro-life, as it depicts the child as a human being from its earliest moments.
The gorgeous illustrations really capture the emotions of each stage of the story: the joyful anticipation of the new baby, the love the Blessed Mother has for Jellybean when she comes for her, the joy on the face of Jesus as He reaches down to embrace the baby when she arrives in heaven, and the sadness of the family as they visit the cemetery.
In sharing their personal experience through this medium, these authors have given the world of Catholic children’s books a beautiful gift: an authentically Catholic book about the loss of unborn babies. If you are facing the sad task of sharing with a young child that an unborn child has died, this book is the perfect resource for that situation. It provides the words to begin the conversation as well as accompanying images to spark further discussion and questions. While the story made me cry, it also filled me with hope for all the babies I’ve known who didn’t survive until birth.
A beautiful story for those suffering through a miscarriage.
I cannot recommend this book enough for anyone who has experienced a miscarriage. It is a simple, BEAUTIFUL depiction of a baby being called to heaven before they are born and how they pray for their family as they heal from their loss. Definitely made me cry and brought some healing.
I bought this book as a gift for a friend who recently lost her little girl shortly before birth. This sweet story I hope will bring comfort and joy to her parents, and to her big brother. It is a comfort to know that the little one is in the arms of the Blessed Mother.
What a sweet story! Although I understand it is for children, my heart was so moved by this simple story! So simple yet so very profound! It made me cry!
Beautiful book for families suffering a loss of a child
I was disappointed as I thought it was about miscarriages. I thought it would help my daughter explain to her children about the baby sibling that was waiting for them in heaven. Instead, the gender was known & even a gravestone to visit. It is unusable for what I hoped. Wish I could return it.
Jelly bean is compassionately written and illustrated. It is a wonderful gift for anyone who has lost a baby.
We lost my first great granddaughter. She was still born. This book can help her siblings and their parents loss.
Very well explaination and easy for children to understand.